I'm getting fed up with being the "nice guy"... it keeps getting in the way.
It's always when I try to like someone as more than a friend. They're always like "I think you're a really great guy, but I just don't like you as anything more than friend." I must give off that "just a friend" impression when I first meet people. I should just stop trying, because whenever I try, I fail. I figure maybe I'm not meant to be the guy that finds the girl, maybe I'm supposed to be the guy that's found by the girl. I figure I'll just stop trying, stop caring, and see how many, if any, girls line up and just try my hand at them. And if I fail at that, which considering my luck with anything is pretty likely, then I guess I'm just meant to be alone my entire life. Or as I've been considering calling it, the batman complex.
The batman complex is simple to understand... Basically, I'll be a multi-millionaire bachelor with women clinging to me only because I have money. But I'll spend that money on charities, research, and building my own arsenal of gadgets and become a vigilante. That's pretty much what I'm foreseeing in my future. And, honestly, it's not what I want. I don't want woman who only want me for my money, no matter how hot or slutty they are. I want a good, honest, lovely wife to raise a family with, but apparently that's too hard to come by nowadays, at least for me.
Whatever God's plan is for me, apparently it has nothing to do with having anything more than friendships. Idk what to do anymore. I've got no game. I've got the pieces, but no game board. And how am I supposed to play the game with no game board. I can't just make my own. Sure, maybe I'll get some creativity points, but that doesn't win you the game, it's cheating, no matter how easy or difficult you make it for yourself. My only hope is that there's a girl who is someone I'd be interested in and who has a game board and is willing to set it up that I can use my game pieces on. Only time will tell...
'Til then...
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